Cansada casi me rindo

Estoy cansada de correr
De tratar y tratar, para no ver nada.

Tengo miedo, tengo miedo de perder. De perder toda una vida de esfuerzos para entonces, nada. Por primera vez en tanto tiempo me siento vulnerable. Vulnerable a la vida, no al amor. Vulnerable a sentir que no sirvio de nada el esfuerzo que con muchos sacrificios me costo llegar hasta donde estoy. Me siento desnuda, totalmente al descubierto delante de un mundo que nisiquiera sabe quien soy. Estoy, parada me encuentro, apunto de caerme al vacio pues camino en cuerda floja y cada paso que doy parecen tambalear. Pues siento que camino en el aire.

Quiero gritar, pero no puedo. Puesto que llevo gritando toda mi vida y mi voz ya no mas. He quedado sin aire, sin palabras, sin voz!

Que mas puedo hacer?
Si en todos mis intentos siento fracaso. Y no me arrepiento, porque es que ante cada paso incierto me hacen una mujer fuerte.

Frustrada..
Cansada, casi me rindo!

Pero no, no permito. No permitire que el momento del presente me haga bajar la cabeza y rendir los brazos. Caminare y seguire luchando. Luchando por lo que creo, por lo que me llena a capacidad. Luchar por lo que es mio y por mas. Porque el cielo no es el limite. Y aunque me sienta desmayar, caminare.

Caminare por lugares que aun no he andado antes. Y se que vere, vere un mundo nuevo. Un mundo donde me sentire orgullosa de estar, porque sufri, porque llore, porque rei. Entonces vi desde abajo lo que es estar arriba, pero estando arriba recordare lo que es estar abajo.

Frustrada..
Cansada, casi me rindo!

Amiga

Tu eres esa pieza que completa mi rompecabezas.
Si hay alguien con quien comparto mis alegrias y mis penas, eres tu.
No hay persona mas paciente, atenta y cariñosa.
Que me haga reir y conosca cada detalle de mi.

Eres como mi hermana, pero pesas mas que sangre.

Amiga, si hay alguien que mas amo en esta vida eres tu.
Cuando mis ideas locas recorren mi cabeza
la primera persona a la que llamo es a ti.

Gracias por ser tan parte de mi vida.
Por contar conmigo y creer en mi.

Tan solo gracias por ser mi amiga!

my hands are tight

My hands are tight
my lips are sealed.

Maybe I made a mistake
maybe I'll regret it later.

I know what I'm letting go.
I know it could have been great.
But what's done is done!

I tight my hands
put tape around my mouth
and throw myself in the deepest ocean.

I don't want to feel
I don't want to hurt no more.

I just want to pay the damage I've caused!

Is not that I didn't feel or still do
I know I'll miss you and forever.
But maybe I was just a mission and is already done!

I tight my hands, seal my lips and close my eyes.
I cant believe I let you go,
but what's done is done!

i could but i wont

I could make you love me how I want, but I won't.
Is unfair for both.
I want you to feel free to be your own person.

I could make you do so many things if I put my mind into it,
but I won't!
Is not healthy to think I own your mind.

I just want you, as you are, as you can be.
I know I can show you real love.

Love where you feel comfortable to be,
to come and go as you please.
Cuz we both are free to be different,
to enjoy life apart and yet be together as one.

I know we both had it hard. But that doesn't make us bad people.
It made us stronger and better.

I want to have you in my arms and make you mine.
But you will never be my property.
I want you to be you and be able to live the life you want.
But I want to be part of that more amazing person
I know you'll become.

I could do so many things, but I won't cuz is not up to me to decide.
Is destiny making our desires reality!

I Try to Hide

My soul its naked
my eyes are blindfolded
My heart its exposed
I have nowhere to go.

I'm here in front of you
ready for you to make me yours.

Words unspoken
in a candle night moment.

Behind close doors
under soft sheets.

I try to hide!

But your penetrating eyes..
they always get thru me.

So far, yet you know me so well!

Im covered in skin...
folding and unfolding new things!

Demencia

Todo un saco de sentimientos ambivalentes
Sueños inconclusos
Y deseos muertos en la orilla.

Subditamente me undo en la arena movedisa
Y no logro ver la salida.
La luz a lo largo del camino va extinguiendo poco a poco
Y en el transcurso pierdo el aire.

No logro encontrar una solucion en el mar de pensamientos, en el mundo de mi cabeza.

Quiero morir y olvidarme que una vez senti.

Parece que leo mi propia novela
Romantica, dramatica, comedia.

No quiero ser nadie.
Ahora mismo tan solo quiero vivir.

He probado el amor
y he quedado al borde de la demencia.

Entre la Noche y el Dia... "sueño"

La luna se puso ante el sol
El día y la noche son gemelas.
Perdí la noción del tiempo.
Mi alma es reflejo del cielo
Las estrellas entristecieron
Y fugaz se fueron lejos
Ya no brillan para mí.
Mi camino es desierto.
Totalmente a la deriva
Mi alma se va perdiendo.

Como cualquier otro día
Allí me tope con tu reflejo.
Resplandeciente como siempre para mí
Pero tan solo un espejismo

Te quise, te quiero y por siempre.


No hay nadie que me pueda hacer mas feliz
de lo que tu me hicistes a mi.

Living on a SuitCase

In this little island used to live a petite girl with a free spirit, full of life and dreams. When she was little she thought there was more about life than just work. As she grew up she started to see things different, life wasn't so pink anymore. In a moment in her life she had to make big decisions, maybe take ones she never thought of; since life push her to that point...

unspoken name

Main character of my dreams.
Illusion of mine...

You are the prohibited apple
and yet, I want a taste!

I wish I could get lost in your eyes
Sail through your hair
Explore the endless possibilities of your body
and your electrifying kisses.

You are the unspoken name.
My little secret...

The only one who knows my true feelings
and yet I wanna scream, but dont wanna play games.

If I only could have you as mine
kiss you endlessly and not just dream that I have you...

You are the popular cheerleader in school
And I'm just the girl next door.

Sweet unspoken name
unreachable love!

la almohada, cuatro paredes y yo

Escucho el sonido de la noche.
El silencio que hace mis cabeza girar.

No duermo,
Tan solo viajo en posibilidades.

Y entre tanta oscuridad
Brilla dentro de mi el vacio.

Me acompañan las ideas
En un sueño casi perfecto.

De aquella realidad
Donde todo quedo encajonado,
En tan solo una idea
De mil pensamiento.

amor traisionado

Mar de sentimientos perdidos
y recuerdos encontrados.

Alli estas tu!
Amor traisionado.

Noviembre

Que de buena tiene la vida si la persona que dices amar y con quien te acuestas todas las noches, no es mas que un cuerpo caminando por la vida. Te hace sentir como sombra, sin reflejo, sin espiritu y existiendo porque no queda de otra que existir. La vida es simplemente una historia escrita en papel donde las noches son un cuento de adas. Pero en realidad es un trastorno mental.

Odio las noches, el silencio y la frialdad.

I once thought I had my life all figured out.

Now I have no clue in what I want and were I'm going.

All I know is that I'm here living the moment. Trying to get what I want step by step while I figure out my deepest desires and dreams.

I know I can achieve whatever I put my mind into.

I'm an spontaneous, creative, lovable, sincere, crazy, respectful person and devoted to people I love. What you see is what you get, no hidden agendas.

When I love I give more than a hundred percent. I walk the extra mile, with no regrets what so ever. I always put my best out there no matter how many times I get hurt. Cause I think life is just one. Moments pass and never come back. So if I see something good in front of me I just grab the opportunity, you never know maybe that will be the beginning to the rest of my life.

One thing I know.

I know what I want out of love...
Someone that can love me as I am. With my ups and downs. With my flaws and virtues. Someone who wont get tired of me saying "I love you", but who is whiling to say it back from the heart. Who is not ashamed to grab my hand down the street or kiss me in the middle of the mall. Someone who will be faithful just because she loves me. I want someone crystal clear, with no hidden agendas. Someone who will do things with me even if its not something she is crazy about it, but will learn to like just cause it makes me happy. I want someone I can trust with my eyes closed, someone who will be there for me; not just a friend, but a lover and a partner. I'm intense, so I want someone who will be up for it. And definitely someone who can take time to know every aspect of my body, spirit and mind; who can be romantic in bed and daily basis. Last but not least, someone who can make me laugh and respect me as a person.

I don't want just "s-l-h". I want a deeper connection. I mean I go for anything, I'm easygoing, but still.

I might sound a little bit exigent, but I know everyone has that. People just don't take time to know themselves and to be patient around the person they say they love.

My birthday is coming up pretty soon and I just need to figure stuff out. I'm not a teenager anymore, but thank God I'm not that old either... I still got time!

Skipping every second of life

Tell me how is it possible...
to live life skipping the seconds?

There is no emotion on not knowing
what happens in front of you
every time you just had the perfect kiss
or while you have the greatest of sex

Or even more, just living the perfect moment
and not knowing that it even happened.

Life is not about hiding
is about confronting what comes on your way.

There is nothing better than remembering
the good and the bad of life.

Like the first kiss on a first date!

Life and skipping the moments of it
is like running from reality.

un momento...

Quien diria que el tiempo por un momento pararia delante de mi, solo para apreciar las bellezas de mi isla y la gente hermosa que vive en ella. Quien diria que mi corazon realmente lloraria al ver mi partida tan cerca. Pero me llevo guardados los recuerdos. Puesto que he pasado los mejores momentos de mi vida junto a mis amigos y famila en Puerto Rico.

Muse..

My soul its naked
my eyes are blindfolded
My heart its exposed
I have nowhere to go.

I'm here in front of you
ready for you to make me yours.

Words unspoken
in a candle night moment.

Behind close doors
under soft sheets.

I try to hide!

But your penetrating eyes..
they always get thru me.

So far, yet you know me so well!

Im covered in skin...
folding and unfolding new things!

Some Changes

Now, its time for some new changes.

Life its full of them.
Whenever something ends,
right there its when something bigger
and better its about to happened.

Life its like the ocean...
big and takes you to some pretty awesome places.
Just take the risk to dive right into it with no regrets.
Let yourself go
and let the waves take you wherever they need to take you.
Cause someday you'll look back and you'll see,
it was better not to think about it to much.

If you don't risk it, you wont live it!

Go with the flow,
there is just one opportunity and it wont wait for you!

Plane Ticket

The intensity of the words unspoken
by the walk of your flying fingers.
Electrifying kisses in the distance
tingles my whole body.

Desire by attraction
makes me wanna hold you tight.

So near and so far.

Dreams starting to become reality
With just a possibility of you being here.

In an instant, in a moment...
You and me could become one
In mind, spirit and body.

Taking a trip to the past
took us both to this present.

Here and now...
Living the moment.

Quiero...

olvidarme de ti.

Quiero perder en el viento
los recuerdos que en algun momento me hicieron feliz.
Quiero tan solo llevar la esencia de lo que fuimos
y enterrar lo que en algun momento dejamos de ser.

Quiero vivir una nueva vida
por eso he vuelto a nacer.
Quiero ser lo que nunca fui.
Quiero volver a sufrir para seguir creciendo.

Quiero ser todo aquello que perdi.

Momentum

La vida esta llena de oportunidades,
de riesgos, de ideas y de sueños
tan solo hay q exponerse a vivir los momentos
y agarrar lo q llegue en un ahora o en un despues.

Si se vive sonriendo aunq se este dolido por dentro,
la vida misma te sanara las heridas con el tiempo.

Sonrie, vive, celebra cada minuto cada instante...

No hay nada mejor que los amigos,
que la familia y las experiencias.

Eres lo q vives!... Vives lo q eres!

Sonriele a la vida, no importando que!

Se tu, tan solo tu
y no permitas q nadie te haga sentir menos,
porq todos somos iguales.

No pienses en lo q pudieras perder si aprovechas una oportunidad,
tan solo piensa q si vives la experiencia,
ganaras mucho mas en el proceso,
mucho mas de lo q quizas puedas perder luego.