As much as I want, it is what it is!

To expect, is always a disappointment.

To live the unexpected, are unpredictable and sometimes undesirable momentums.

To be here and face it like a grown up, is a tough task to handle.

In life there is nothing certain but death.

To fight for the dreams, the goals, and a perfect thought in this unbalanced world not always having karma in our side is a battle only the brave can win.

I pray for the day I see the woman I was meant to be.

I pray for the day that I won’t be judged for seeing life how it is.

I pray for the day that my heart will change to the origins I was once taught.

To love unconditionally,
to laugh for no reason,
to enjoy the day I was privileged to live.

To forgive and forget and simply let go of the past...

What a hard task to be perfect!

Secrets

To be clear as the water can be a very dangerous task. Sometimes to keep somethings to yourself could be the smart thing to do.

To be or not to be?
To keep or not to keep?
To do or not to do?

So many questions!

Secrets were meant to keep as secrets!
If you don't want anyone to know keep them to yourself!

Family First

Like I've said many times before, "life is short". I know we all have some complaints about the family we could not choose for ourselves, but at the end blood is heavier than water.

Family comes first. Something that my parents have thought me. Over and over again they have shown me who they are even when they don't say it out loud. I can see in my mom almost an angel, a compassionate, loving, caring, strong, hard worker, dedicated, organized woman. Is amazing how she is able to fit a week schedule in a day. My dad, a great provider, workaholic, self-starter, business man. Thru him I learned that the only way to survive in this world and be able to enjoy something good is by working. With them together I learned to love, to support each other, that a relationship is a teamwork effort and takes time to find perfection. But regardless of the day to day there's always time to spend together and talk; there's always time for respect and show love.

I am blessed to have parents that fought for the love they have and didn't allow the surroundings to affect it. I am blessed to have the love of my parents!

Family first, always!

Lucky

To taste the flavor of such softness
And explore every corner.
To feel the warmth,
Explosion of feelings;
Sweet words.

Lucky, to find each other
In such broken world.

To find love
To have yours
For you to have mines.

Making our surrounding nauseous
they are just jealous they didn't find it first.

You are my lucky charm!

Embrace

Every minute, of every hour, of everyday!

Today we are here, tomorrow who knows what might happen.

To love for me is a privilege!

I learned that life is fragile, that we should appreciate the moments that life gives us. We are lucky to be alive, to laugh and cry, make mistakes, and learn from them.

To be here should be enough to be grateful, because once your eyes open, at that very moment God gives the opportunity to put life in motion towards the things we want and deserve.

So embrace today, tomorrow it might be too late!

I say I love you...

All our lives enjoying the innocence under the wings of our sheltered parents. To now realize those times passed a long time ago. Today being different should have been a ride to the park, but it's still a tabu. I live like I never said anything to them, like if my words are empty and they never took me serious. Almost like if I don't exist but they live with the illusion of me, a parallel daughter which is perfect just like they dreamt.

The harder they try to change me, the further they push me away. Is not a matter of a flu, is a matter of being born this way. I don't care anymore of hiding, I have no need for it.

These are not reasons for me to love you, these just a few reasons why I want to stay. Is not a matter of running away from my problems, but a matter of being tired of trying to proof myself. I thought many things were fixed between me and my parents but then again is like all I did was make it worst.

With you next to me I have it all, emotionally I am happy. With you I feel I have a family where I can be myself again. Next to you I feel I can do anything because you inspire me to do whatever it takes to make it thru. I want to give you everything. I want to make you happy. I know I am not perfect, but I know that everyday is an opportunity to be better.

I say I love you because next to you I want to stay forever.

I say I love you because even when I am still getting to know you, there will be times were I probably want to go running and instead of you shutting down, that's when I need you to come running after me, the same way I would for you.

We are in this together and even thou I have my house, home is with you. I promise from this point on everything will be for the better and I will not do anything that puts our relationship on a position where you have to wonder why. You are my friend and lover and because of it I consider you in everything I do.

I say I love you because I want to give you everything that I am, what I have yet to discover and the future we are building together.

December 2013 - Happy New *@#%^+ Year

New York is a rude place.

Always on a hurry, me first and me second.
Party is the number one thing for everyone, specially during the holidays.

Holidays? Not the type I am used to.
But I sure had fun with the family; roof party.

Fun times for sure!

In the other hand, people made me feel so out of place.
Is amazing how a person so unimportant can affect your emotions in an instant.
How those strangers can make you feel worst than actually someone that you might love.

If walking away was the easiest way I would choose that in a heartbeat.
But reality, not here to walk out.
I'm here to stay!

Even if I hate so much a situation, a person or a place.
I'm here to stay because I love
And love conquers all!

I don't like the idea of having to tolerate someone just because I love,
But if that's what it takes, so be it.
I don't have to like them!